to whom shall i complaint?

Some say I am a betrayer betrayed,but if I have never betrayed anyone,and have just been betrayed in love why would you say this ? Is it because after you hurt my heart and split it open that when I hated you I became a betrayer ?Or is it because I wont let anyone in because the pain hurts ? Am I the betrayer full of hate for you? It is true I hate you but there is a part of me that wont let you go. I still hate you or how you hurt me,but I still love the way you were and how you would hold me in your arms. Now I feel like I'm falling.. To Whom shall i complain?